Thursday, July 31, 2008 9:34 PM
Couldn't care much
Time is running out, really have no time left
i'm only left with a few hours more,
slogging real hard, to complete those undone pens, and chemistry work
how can i make it possible, to finish all these by today!?
really so shag and tired now.
I just wish for a good night sleep
It's another bad day!
I could no longer smile, like i used to.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008 8:15 PM
Lost for words
I'm feeling so suffocated now
i badly want to tell this to someone, and clear my doubt
but i can't. I wished i never know about this!!!
then i wouldn't be so lost for words now!!!
it's hard to believe, and it can't be it
but i know im decieving myself
the truth have lies within here, i can't deny it
However misunderstanding do happens, when we dnt clear our doubt
or assuming it.
anyway, we'll never get to know what a person true colour
or what he/she is thinking.
And i reallyyyy dread guessing and thinking
Two-sided
yipee, yay yay. currently @ seechingyee house now
actually, some of us were supposed to be a audience for the Ne fest
but somehow, our name wasn't on the list
so we could leave early, and need not be a audience
then off i'm here, at her house, slacking
will blog again when i get back home.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008 7:25 PM
Pretentious
Can you imagine that some of the glorious came to school @ 7.15 am
to do up the notice board, it's half way done already though
we need to hurry up as we can't leave redcross notice board empty,
when there's a Ne Fest going on this coming wed.
After school, went to Alvin's house along with 3 dynamic girls & boys
played mahjong and slack at there
tmr will be our school's Ne fest, everyone will be released at 10.
except for those who are involved in the Ne Fest, and sad to say, i'm one of them.
i'm wondering, how many sides of faces does a person have, mostly two sided?
Learnt to accept fate, that's how fragile life can be.!
Monday, July 28, 2008 7:44 PM
School was fine. For Once english lesson aint bored. cause get to watch MrBean
Like finally, i enjoyed english lesson. it will be one out of a zillion times probably
RedCross meeting, today was the slackest meeting of all
many went side track half-way.
finally, the redcross room returns to its clean and spank mode
dust free room at last!!!!
Only six people went for today's meeting, how pathetic can it be
Hmm, i reckon this week's trng is gonna be a fun one!
Weeeeeeeeeee
Sunday, July 27, 2008 9:06 PM
Oh yay, finally changed blogskin. previous one was quite an eye-sore
but it's still a domo one though,
cause i simply love him,.i would call domo a him/
Another slacking day @ home, doing nothing, but blog hoppings
Oh Man, today is reallyyyyy a boring day for me.
Damn! My Usb cable have got some problem
so i couldn't upload pictures from my phone.
I reallyyyy need a school bag badly, my previous one is a goner already.
Mummmyyy, please get one for me, i'm begging you!
Yesterday's Newspaper collection drive was a success!
knocking from door to door, the response from the residents aint that bad
though it was tiring, but at least we did something charitable.
And that feels good.
In the later afternoon, went with glorious to the floating stadium to watch the Black Knight perform
first time to the floating stadium, the feeling was a WOW factor
managed to snap some pictures of the Black Knight
I enjoyed sitting under the cold night breeze,
staring at the dark sky, i felt empty somehow
Anyway, pictures will be upload soon!
anyone interested in this bag?
used for less than a week.
still very very new!
Friday, July 25, 2008 9:46 PM
Today was a bad day for me
Tos session was alright, except for the later end.
it turn out slightly bad,
i never knew that hatred beneath you, but now i know
it was really a rather straightforward one though,
but is there some misunderstanding in between?
because this time, i wasn't the only one saying it!!
arg whatever, say for all you like, i dont want to care anymore.
i'll never know what you're thinking anyway
at times, i do hopes i can read peoples mind,
like this, i would be able to know what everyone is thinking.
but i know, this is kinda impossible
just my imagination.
Thursday, July 24, 2008 9:27 PM
i really dont get it
i'm really lost for words about this entirely thing
i thought it might help, but it became worse
Alright, tmr's there gonna be this tos session
i know many of us dont see a need for this
but if after tmr we can clear all misunderstanding, why not give it a try
i believed it wouldn't do any harm
it won't turn out the way you'll think it might
think postive, don't think negative
we need to clear all misunderstanding now, cause in future
we'll still need to work together, as a team
if we have some hatred for each other, we wouldn't be able work well as a whole
people, trust me. tmrs session wont be a bad one
take this chance to thrash everything out once & for all
we can't think for ourselves anymore, we got to think for other as well
And whenever there is conflicts between us,
it doesn't only concern us. it concerns everyone
seniors, VIs & YOs
we shouldn't be making them worry for us times & times again
we can't always rely on them, at times.
we need to stand up together as one & solve things by ourselves
so glorious, please attend tmr's sessions.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 7:34 PM
History repeating itself again
can't we just live life without any conflicts & aruguements?
it's true that some words said out are kinda harshing to all
since we have already come up to this level as a whole
to take over this unit, why dont we just give our best shot
why is it that after knowing it
everyone starts shunning or get bothered because of it?
there aint perfection in this world
whatever we do, one party will gain & likewise the other party will lose
it's just all about who's gaining & losing.
people refuse to lose, i can understand that
but sometimes, this is fate, we gotta learn to accept it
maybe in any sense or way, they did far better than us.
this is the fact that all of us needs to accpet
i aint siding on anyone, just stating my views
it's the fact they have more potential in us, so there's no need for us to withdraw out of anything
this is our committment, our passion. whether or not we like it, we musn't let it die.
i admit, sometimes i do complain. cause the fact is quite unfair to some of us
i understand, we've always been the committed one
& now we can no longer know everything. only top three can know.
but this is reality, this is how unfair life is
no use harping on such things anymore & carry on with our journey of a leader
So, do think before we act.
Monday, July 21, 2008 8:20 PM
Hadn't been updating post lately
cause i was quite busy lately, with this & that
we still got to rush out those per-orders pens by tomorrow, which is damn rushing
and only some glorious is helping
sometimes i do wonder does glorious batch really have 21 people
why does it seems to be that it only have 12 people or so?
it's just the same old people here & there, where have the others gone?
All gone cause they dislike their post. hopefully not.
there is like 24 hours per day
but how come i feel that everyday passes by so fast
to me, it's just like just a few hours passes by, & here comes the next day AGAIN
perhaps we should have 36 hours/48 hours per day
maybe by then, all of us at least have the time to relax abit.
i hadn't had a good sleep for a long long time.
even when i'm sick.
Friday, July 18, 2008 12:12 AM
Today will be our school anual Charity bazzar
Yesterday was a rather busy day for everyone. whereby everyone prepared for their respective booth
I'm sure tmr is gonna be a long day, for glorious & everyone
hadn't been having a nice sleep lately
this week, was a busy week for us, having to prepare this & that
damn shaggy & tired now. Where's my bed!!!?
May today's bazzar be a success.
Come on everyone, let's work hard for today's event.
kinda wierd to say today in 12.17 a.m
Strive hard towards our goals!!!! Go go go.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008 10:03 PM
Today, had health check up. following backbone checkup is on the mid of december.
hope it doesn't clashes with any events.
And yeah,so i went to the D&t course alone. was like being so isloated in there.
today marked an end of this course, finally.
First tryout for Ndp rehearsal was fine.
althought our standard dropped a little
but practice makes perfect right.
with more practise, i believe we can regain the strength that EvgRcy used to have :D
Remember, one unit one results is Our Strength.
Have been busy lately. two events coming up this week
Charity bazaar & CAC competition is drawing nearer day by day.
Anyway, work hard yeah people.
We'll work hard to gain success!!!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008 10:47 PM
Hmm today, went out with some glorious to buy stuff needed for the charity bazzar
well, realised that we haven't got much things prepared yet
we still got many things to do, pinball ball, rabit & such
can say that i'm pretty noob in sewing things, the rabit was such a difficult task for me!!
for yuying as well, she's good in other things, but aren't good in sewing
we aren't some housewife material, aint we?
just cooking a noodles was such a trouble to me
what more to mum,imagine she have to everyday cook for us 3-4 dishes for dinner!
A time without mum is dreadful, cause i don't know how to cook or do housework!!!
Ohmy, having maths cumulative test tmr, am i prepared for it?
Damn, tmr i can only reach home @ 7, cause having Ndp rehearsal.
A moment like this, some people wait for a lifetime.
Monday, July 14, 2008 10:32 PM
Today, Rc meeting after school
discussed on friday's trng & charity bazzar
For charity bazzar, cashier will be me & yy
& of course, our dear overall in-charge will be lessy, hh.
having quite a tight schedule now, with so many redcross events going on
but it isn't a bad thing though.
just that i will be too busy to go out with friends.
i realized i really hadn't got enough time to complete everything
almost everyday will reach @ 6 or 7, not enough time to study.
but will find time to.
maybe i shouldn't have let you go at that time.
if i were to wait, how long must i?
Saturday, July 12, 2008 11:48 AM
The sky.
The sky colour of yesterday's evening.
taken on last friday.
Friday, July 11, 2008 10:31 PM
God blessed her.
Holy mama, there was a loud crashing sound @ my house SUDDENLY
& my mum just ecaped from death at 10.35
The light at my balacony suddenly broke & smashed, by itself,
& half an hour ago my mum was like hanging clothes in there
shouldn't she count herself lucky :D god blessed her
Ccd, what MrsHaris had said suddenly worried me, as well as enlightened me
i should stop spending my rest of the time slacking already
indeed, my results are deproving, cause i wasn't as hardworking as i was.
i'm worried then i cannot get promoted to Sec 4, cause teacher just gave me a warning call.
Celeste goh, you really got to buck up. stop slacking!!!
Friday's training!
evac pratical lesson was overall a success.
i reckon today's training is sort of fun
hunt for senior game.
hunting for senior, asking for senior's belonging,
doing cheers for seniors, playing with the cadets,running away from cadets & such.
isn't this fun? i believed all of us had fun yeah.
they even shout in front of the crowd, "I love RedCross"
Alright!, that's the spirit man
Note: 12 glorious are going for the first aid com in Sep holidays, including me
gotta start building up on our stamina, and brush up on our skills
guess there will be more Pt for glorious in future
Thursday, July 10, 2008 10:04 PM
Speechless
Today, everyone seems so moody
temperature taking session was fine, but it eat in our physic lesson
lesson today were all quite slack, most of them were fun quizes
As for english, guess teacher was in a bad mood today
walk into the classroom & so call raise her voice @ us, for nothing.
she even said that 'today my mood not good, dont argue with me'
gosh, if everyone is going to throw temper when their mood aren't good
won't there be many unhappy innocent victims.
It doesn't mean that today you mood no good then can anyhow scold people eh
this really make no sense man.
Evac dry run, didn't really go through everything though
but we sort of know what we are gonna do for tmr's lesson
Bro was accepted by St Andrew JC, to them it might be a good news
but to me, i treat it as a bad news
mum have been always comparing both of us,
it now he gets in JC, i guess i can totally have no stand in this family
anyway i dont think i have it now too.
why must mother keep comparing them with their elder or younger children?
if not they will also srart comparing with their friend's duaghter
i tried many ways to please mum
but it seems everything i'm doing now is meaningless
gradually, i started to ignore her words & presence
i don't wish this to happen, we're one whole family
but why do i always have this thinking that if i'm weren't in this family
they would be much better off.
no matter how hard i tried, the results are still the same
then what for i try?
i can't feel any kinship from my family at all
no to mention family love or mother love.
Wednesday, July 09, 2008 7:56 PM
Aren't fit to be.
Today wasn't my doom day, was considered as my lucky day
Cause , early morning it was raining , so i esacaped from raising the flag in front of the huge crowd
New cl teacher is like freaking what the hell.
she was just abusing her authority towards us
neither do i think that she's fit to even be a Cl teacher
just by looking at how many wrong words she have written was far enough already
and her method of teaching was completely wrong.
no teacher would ask their students to multi task.
I aren't discriminating her, i'm just stating the facts. People from my class will understand.
Other than that, nothing much happened during class
End up, i managed to persuade them to attend the course
Next week will mark the end of this course, at least i'm skilled with another knowledge now.
Gosh, Evac dry run tmr.
♥ Always look on the bright side.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008 9:30 PM
Dooms' day
Today, after school went to Cwp to have lunch with glorious & Jolene mdm
when it was close to 3, Mr Lbp kept on staring @ me eating
worry that we might be late for meeting. @_@ typical kiasu singaporean
Meeting was kind of fun today
laughters among the glorious again
Okay, have somehow decided on our redcross' 08 unit teeshirt
i seriously enjoy the life now as an NCO
being able to somehow fool around in everything.
Of course, when there are only glorious around
there seems to be quite a lot of casuatly lately
which put my fear at risk :/
Tmr's my doom day, Evg flag bearer for morning assembly
am i really going to go for the D&t course alone?
friends don't seem to enjoy attending it D:
♥ I'm missing you in anyways.
Sunday, July 06, 2008 9:23 PM
The journey of a leader
Met up with LeeBoonPing & SeeChingYee to do homework together
both of them are sort of doing their work
& of course, i'm using the computer in the library again
Every week or everyday seems to past really fast
Every week is just about staying back for this and that
thinking back the days where we were still a cadet
And now, a leader.
through out this whole journey everybody had change to a different person
learning to become a leader.
i believe glorious still got many things to learnt throught out the journey of being a leader
neverthless, we will strive hard & bring the unit to a greater height
glorious attendance is falling again
& how can we expect only 11 people to manage the whole unit
we definetly need more manpower
or everything will start to screw up.
Glorious, please don't let your passion in RedCross to fade away
the whole unit needs us.
"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising up everytime we fall"
- Confucius
Unexpected/
Everything came so fast & unexpected
OURS day camp was simply so fabulous & extraodinary
One unit, One results, OURS strength
throught this camp, learnt many new things about being a leader
glorious is no longer a follower, we had became a leader
& i believe we are all trying to be a good leader
success never comes by easily
the results were out, yes, appeal was rejected
YES, it was way too harsh, for me to accept it
Friday's incidence really shocked me,entirely
i don't know how will i react next time when such things happen again
my hope were dashed, completely
i would rather not know the results, i wonder was his appeal a success?
but neverthless, i won't give up on RedCross because of this
whether things changes for the better or not, i know i can't shun my responsibility
and i won't.
shedding my tears, were meaningless,
however i felt better after crying
i know this wouldn't change much
but at least i finally talk to someone about it.
and i was rather glad to
Thanks sirs & ma'ams for this wonderful OURS camp.
Thursday, July 03, 2008 7:13 PM
A forever regret.
Hohoho, for once i went home straight after sch.
Chem test today, comfirm is can'tmakeit one @_@
D&t wasn't that boring afterall, had some hands-on work, like finally
rush my Cl project like mad & finally it's 3/4 done
Good news ,the present ex-cos are stepping down :D
& new ex cos are stepping up. wonder who will be the head.
Holy mama, i've got tang sang zhang & a sun wu kong in my cl class now
Of course, they were named by their surname laa
Counting down two more days left to day camp :) & the results D:
recalling back the memories you've given me,
indeed you have become my greatest regret for life
i long for it, but i can no longer have it.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008 7:30 PM
Just purely excuses
i'm beginning to have lesser interest in everything
smetimes, i hope that the bell will faster ring, & that'll mark the end of school.
sch life is getting dry nowadays.
Geez, i super duper hate two periods lesson.
make me want to fall asleep already laa
D&t course, today's lesson was a little less interesting than before
& the styler kept giving us problem
i was out of ideas when it come to designing laa.
i really dnt understand what's wrong with some people
like then come, dnt like then dnt come
once you choose this, it's not up to you to decide it alright.
the results are drawing nearer
i'm really afraid when the results is reveal.
i'll have no courage to listen.
i wonder what am i going to do after knowing the results
surely there'll be one side whom will lose out.
You're still the one i run to, The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life, You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of, You're still the one I kiss good night
You were the one I took for granted & i regretted it
Tuesday, July 01, 2008 8:41 PM
Accepting it reluctantly
Hurrayy, i passed my sit & reach
like finally laa @_@
physic period is always such a waste of time
everytime wasn't sure of the location to go to
ended up waited like an idiot outside library
Rc meeting after tht, had loads of fun
finally we can play & slack in the redcross rm
cat fighting with Yy, Cy became the 2nd victim :/
in the end, i guess Yy has lots of bruises now
till now, i still can't bring myself to accept everything
whether is good or bad, it's still hard for me to take it.
Idk why, i stil can't accept her presence.
but i hope things'll change for the better smeday
Smetimes i really hope to find a good spot which i can cry peacefully @ there
but who can i lean on? who will be there for me?
seriously, having a family or not, doesn't really matters to me.
cause parents dnt even knw whether i'm sad or happy
we gotta fight for our own happiness
