i thought a few weeks ago, would be my last time posting about my relationship with mum
haven't i tried hard enough
we agree to give in to one another
initially, we rly gave in to one another
i didn't know things wuld get out of hand again(!!)
i rly no longer know what i can do.
my happiness, were all, so short-lived
all was just a play. where the naive me, believed it completely
i thought if i give in to you, we will go along well
but mum, i'm tired.
everytime, when i go out
return home, you would never welcome me with a smile
you wuld always question me, like a criminal
& i hate this feelings, hate of not being trusted
i thought i thought i thought
i thought as time passes by, i will gain just a little trust from you
foolish me, foolish me, foolish me!!!

now i know, things can't be always tht simple

there's a motive behind everything someone do

as there's a sentence which goes like this, there's no free meal in this world.

i get this meaning, fully get it alr.

i'm sry, i told you 我死心了!

i know you're sad, i know yr stand of being a mum

but mum, i'm a human being

which human being dnt have feelings

although friends always say tht i dnt have a generation gap with you

but why, can't you let go off me?

it's just like. you can't strech a rubber band till tht long

or tht rubber band will snap

for me, i aint a rubber band

the rubber band can snap, probably i'll break down

i care tht you care for me

i'm happy tht you once changed yr attitude towards me

i'm happy tht you tried letting go off me

thanks mum!

but why, why did we stop till here

we've gone so far, & now, going back to the same old unkind you again

i pray to god, to dnt take away my mother love from me

i seek god forgiveness,to let mum continue to love me

why must everything stop till here?

i'm sorry mum. i need some time

i just wish to be carefree fifteen year old, to be a young teen,without any troubles

it's just too much, too harsh, for me.