Saturday, October 25, 2008 10:29 PM
the most familiar stranger
what's happening to me?! i wonder which is then the real me
haaaa, basically, I've like got two character inside me.
the gloomy type and the cheerful/joker type
however, i don't know why, in front of my family/relatives,
i'm not being able to be my true self, my own self
yet, in front of my friends/glorious, i can joke/laugh with them, or even make them laugh
or my true self is not at all cheerful?
let's say when i'm at grandma house, with my relatives/cousins
i will just occupy myself by watching tv, I'm not able to joke with them
or crap with them, or make them laugh
yes, probably the only thing that will explain why am i like that, is that i'm jealous.
i know it's stupid, but it's kinda of unfair?
cause she(mum) treat other people better than her daughter
and that feeling doesn't feel good.
at home, i also can't bring myself to smile
why is this happening.
probably, i've numb myself, in front of my family and relatives
i don't want to be like this in front of them, but i can't help it.
we've become the most familiar strangers.
