It's irony how emotions could associate with feelings, thoughts, and behavior
one point of time, you might be feeling happy
and the next point you might be feeling down
you can cheat on anything, but not your emotions.

Home's been getting increasingly suffocating lately.
Things would never go smoothly, for the reason that we have way too many grumbles.
You are not happy with the things i do, And i am not happy with the way you control me.
Tell me, who don't wish to have a good relationship with their mother, share their troubles,happiness,grief.
Brother would be able to do that, but i can't.
All these, slowly accumulates to now the 'don't care attitude' of me.
I already have the thinking, what far i bother so much,
Or say so much, when i know things won't or can never go back to the same
And it's not that i didn't try, i tried.
But gradually i realised that it's useless.
During your lecturings/scoldings/grumblings, my heart has only two words, 算了.
Cause whatever i do, you're always unhappy with my performance.
I thought as i grow older, you will control me less
But your rules is always changing.You have the say, and i don't.
Everday, i wake up happily.Go school happily.Yet come home with a heavy heart.